You're 16. You're a pedophile. You don't want to hurt anyone. What do you do now?

Adam was at his desk in the second-story bedroom of his family's suburban home when he came across it. He had recently switched file-sharing programs to one that offered more content and faster browsing, and his downloading habit had increased in kind. There was now a constant stream of files whose names included acronyms such as PTHC, or pre-teen hardcore.

The boy in this video was fair-haired and looked to be about one and a half, his small, naked body tied up to restrict movement. A man's torso entered the frame and the child began to scream. As he watched the scene unfold, Adam was transfixed, and then quickly revolted; he reached over and stopped the video. It wasn't like anything he'd witnessed in the two years he'd been viewing child pornography. Until now everything he'd seen seemed to suggest that the kids liked it, but this toddler was clearly in pain. [...]

Seeing that toddler trussed up and in pain confirmed something he'd long suspected but now had to acknowledge. The man in the video was one of those guys they sometimes talked about on the news. Though Adam didn't want to hurt anyone, he knew that, on some level, he was just like him. He was 16 years old, he was a pedophile, and he had to do something about it. [...]

Anecdotal evidence suggests that most pedophiles first notice an attraction toward children when they themselves are between 11 and 16, mirroring that of any other sexual awakening. It can be a confusing time for any of us, but imagine realizing that you're attracted to little kids. How do these young men and women negotiate that with no viable role models or support network? There is no It Gets Better for pedophiles. Are they all fated to end up as child molesters? Or is it possible for them to live a life without hurting children at all?

source: Article 'You're 16. You're a Pedophile. You Don't Want to Hurt Anyone. What Do You Do Now?' by Luke Malone; medium.com/matter/youre-16-youre-a-pedophile-you-dont-want-to-hurt-anyone-what-do-you-do-now-e11ce4b88bdb; Medium; 11 August 2014