I can remember the very first time I ever watched a gay porn scene

Like so many of us out there in the male-seeking-male community, I have quite an active relationship with pornography (if I am honest, my relationship might be a little too active). I can remember the very first time I ever watched a gay porn scene. I was about 13 years old, and I was home alone on my dad's old dial up internet connection. (So you can imagine just how fast it actually was, right?) I stumbled onto this website of these two college aged "runners" in a scene where they exchanged oral and some pretty vigorous fucking.

As I watched, while I became completely intoxicated by this scene, because it cemented that I definitely had a predilection for the peen, something else was happening to me too - something deeper and more affecting than I understood at the time. I was learning about our culture. I was learning about the performance of masculinity, and that to be a real gay man you had to look and act a certain way in order to be accepted.

source: Article '5 Reasons Why We Need Disabled, Queer Male Porn Performers' by Andrew Morrison-Gurza; www.huffingtonpost.com/andrew-morrisongurza/pwd-pornstars-with-disabi_b_9601594.html; Huffpost Queer Voices; 6 April 2016